Gone Too Soon...

First of all, I was at a Michael Jackson commemoration gathering yesterday, therefore I could not update.

Last Thursday I was devastated by the sudden death of Michael Jackson. Still, I feel this sadness lingering. I have a hard time believing he is gone because, to me, it feels surreal. Michael was the kind of man I believed would live forever. I thought that one day I would tell my kids about him, and he would still be alive. I hate that my kids will have to feel about Michael what I feel about the Beatles, that they were born in the wrong generation.

Whenever I watch his videos now, I have this strange feeling. Like it's not the person in them that has passed away. He feels immortal in those videos. When I think about a deceased MJ, I think about a 90-year-old little man. Not a lively person with an amazing voice and, still, extraordinary dance moves. It's just a strange concept, that he is no longer there. After the burial I think that it will feel more permanent, that he is really gone. Until then I'm always going to expect him to resurface someday and tell us it's all a mistake.

Music has lost one of its most important people. He will be missed. I will always miss him. He was a great man. He altered my life on so many levels and I can't begin to describe what he meant to me. He is the reason for so many things I do and like in my life. He is also partially the reason I am who I am today. But his death is not only a tragedy for me, personally. I feel like, with him, a whole era has come to an end. He will never be here to see music evolve and to, maybe, steer it back in the right direction.

For a while I felt the urge to make it clear how much he meant to me and how big a fan I was. I know now that there is no point in doing that. I know how much he meant to me, that is enough. It's not about the amount of merchandising you buy or how many songs you know by heart. It's about how much of your heart is committed to the music. That is, in the end, what counts.

Michael, you were an amazing person, musician, lyricist, dancer, ... I will forever remember you and make sure the next generation won't forget you either. You will be missed, but you are invincible and will remain forever among us, in our hearts, thoughts and memories. Thank you for every day I had the opportunity to enjoy your music. Rest in peace, Michael.

In 2009 I already lost my grandmother, who was very dear to me. I would like this opportunity to honor her as it is five months since she has passed away. I still miss her every day and I can only aspire to be half as good as she was. She was truly the most selfless and kind person I have ever known and probably will ever know. It was an honor to have known you. Thank you for touching my life the way you did.

I am aware that this particular post is very heavy hearted. Under the circumstances there is no other way, I'm sorry.

Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight. Here one day, gone one night. Gone too soon.
XO-reos
Monco